Bubbles

Do you remember
the feeling of infatuation
like little butterflies
playing in your abdomen
or tiny fragile bubbles
bursting in your belly

This strange sensation
I am feeling right now

Not caused by love
but rather the absence
of you, or just someone

Feeling, not being, in love

Confusion

I’ve lost myself
I had too much on my mind
Needed to wind down
Could someone help me find
The sanity
I was confused
Mistook comfort for affection
Misplaced my essence

But not

Thousand thoughts in my mind
Replaying every event
Every who said what, when, how

Overanalyzing every little move
A whisper, a comma
A look
Still I’m not in love

New horizons

Infatuated by you

Our meeting left me hungry for more
An appetite that screams thru my being

You opened up and made me see
There’s so much greater than me
Fractions of a new horizon

Rays of sunlight

rays of sunlight
fills my now unburdened shell
my body drinks in
every little drop of golden

sips, then gourge in

And all of a sudden
the wheight lifts off my shoulders

faster and faster
i feel imense joy
taking over, healing
the scratches and scars

all opportunities open

once was

silent echoes
of whispering voices

memories of loving eyes
tender caresses

sunny daze

so you left and i should be sleeping
wide-awake with dreams in my heart
stars sigh from their hiding
the world is quiet all is dark

i've fallen into a sunny daze
the light of you warms my body
sunny daze

your words whispering in my head
your caresses echoes on my skin
the smile thought lost and dead
you found the key and got in

Despair

Why is my love wrong?
am I not allowed to be happy?
am I wrong?

I don't know what to do anymore..

Insomnia

Troubled by thoughts
Can’t sleep anymore
Insomnia
My perception gone

Wanted you so much I pushed you away
My infatuation with you secluded me
Alone with you on my mind
Can’t seem to stop thinking about you
The words…

questions

lost dreams
defeated by my own stupidity

why
why did I do so much wrong
how could I

If I'd only known
I never would have hurt you

If I could wind back the clock
still knowing what I know now

So many ifs
no solution

what am I supposed to do?
someone please, please, make this ache stop

I can't forget
I won’t